I only have three more days remaining in my first 100 hour module of my 500 Hour Teacher Training. I had every intention to write after each session about the process. To be real, my brain is absolute mush and incredibly full. It'll take some time for me to unpack all the information I've taken in throughout this training. However, one thing has been clear since day one: I am so thankful to be a student. I never appreciated learning until I started to study and practice yoga. Although my title as teacher has taken center stage over the last few years, I hope to never lose my student mentality.
Each day of training is a little different, but most days consist of a seated meditation, 90+ minute asana practice, lectures on yoga philosophy and teaching techniques, practice teaching with my peers, manual adjustments, injury prevention and maintenance, and so much more. Training begins at 8:45am and ends around 5:45pm. The days are long, but I leave energized and eager for more. This experience has exceeded my expectations.
In true yoga teacher training fashion this time hasn't been all about studying yoga; I have learned a lot about myself during this process. For so long I have convinced myself that I am introverted and suffer from mild social anxiety. Those things might be true, however, I'm beginning to believe I've been totally making that up. The time I've spent connecting with my peers in this training has been priceless. I have thoroughly enjoyed establishing a community of like-minded individuals. I'll definitely miss geeking out on the point of origin of the psoas and the function of the retinaculum of the ankle, but I'll mostly miss this new yoga community of mine.
I have a few days remaining, but there's one thing that's hung with me since my third day of training. During our morning meditation Jason said something along the lines of, "As yogis we are not in the business of fixing or changing things. As yogis we are in the business of letting things come and go." We don't practice asana to change our bodies. We don't practice meditation to change our minds. The struggle dissipates when we just let things come and go.